Contrary to my last two posts, I have found that I am not at all brave. A brave person doesn't want to crawl right back into bed every morning so she doesn't have to face the day. A brave person isn't on the verge of tears every second of the day. A brave person wouldn't feel as though her whole world was caving in when she finds a new lump on her dog.
The additional testing came back on Tara's tumor, and it is not good. It has spread to the lymphatic system, but I didn't need the report to know that. There are new lumps appearing every day. Every freakin' day. Her head, neck, legs, back, sides...everywhere. You know that feeling of being punched in the gut and having all of the wind knocked out of you? That's what it's like with each new lump.
Last Tuesday when Tara had her stitches removed (from her surgery on April 10) we showed the vet the half dozen lumps that had appeared at that time. Tomorrow he will be taking one (or more) of them off to be biopsied, just to confirm what we already know to be true. It has spread. Like wildfire.
Thursday we will be taking her to a holistic veterinarian. At this point I kind of feel like it's closing the barn door after the horse has run off, but it can't hurt. Plus, Tara really loves to go for rides in the car, and she knows she gets a burger after every appointment! Here she is after getting her stitches out last week.
Nom, nom, nom!
The only good thing about this whole situation is that Tara feels perfectly fine. She is acting normal, eating and "eliminating" normally, playing with her toys, running around the yard, and generally being the sweetest dog in the whole wide world. Don't get me wrong, this whole thing sucks, but at least she has no idea it sucks.
It's my goal to keep it that way...
9 comments:
Oh Dianne. Well, thankfully Tara feels good and is enjoying her rides and burgers.
Cancer sucks. When it attacks the sweetest, most loving creatures in the world, it REALLY sucks. Is there anything I can do??
I'm so sorry. Sending lots of loving vibes to you and Tara.
Dianne thanks so much for commenting on my blog - then I could find you again. I'm so sorry about Tara. I wish there was something I could do.
Look how nicely she eats that burger! :) g
What a horrible disease. I am sorry that Tara and you are going through this. You are taking the very best care of her. I have a Brittany too--they hold a special place in my heart.
I'm so sorry to hear this. Sweet Tara. I'm glad she's not in any discernable pain. I know that gut punched feeling well.
Hugs for you.
Sigh, I know exactly how you feel. But I'm glad that Tara is a happy girl, and enjoying herself. Everyone in our house is sending good thoughts your way. Please give her an extra kiss from me.
I am so sorry. I will be sending prayers and good vibes your way.
I'm so sorry... it's not fun, but thankfully Tara still knows nothing but fun (thanks to her awesome Mama). Hang in there and lean this way when you need it...
I've been putting off calling to schedule another blood test on Zeus... as you say with Tara, he's doing everything perfectly "fine" on the outside.....
Hugs.
Yeah, I do know exactly how you feel. I've recently been there and most likely will be again way too soon.
You and Tara are n my thoughts as I escort Morgan slowly off the deck and help her back up the stairs.
It absolutely sucks that they grow old so fast. I hate it, but I won;t let them know.
Sue
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